Things Change way to Fast

Sadie having fun on Sunday May 1

Since I wrote that last entry this morning, things have drastically changed. Sadie has NO energy, has not ate anything all day, has been panting all day and shaking at times. She won't even give kisses, which anyone who has ever been around her knows that this is not her normal!! We took her outside to play and she proceeded to go and stand under the apple tree for at least 15 minutes. She would slowly walk my way if I called her, but would have much rather just stood in her spot. The most activity she had was when Matt walked out into the backyard after work. She slowly trotted up the hill to greet him and proceeded to start panting like she had just got done playing frisbee in the 90 degree heat. I did place a call to the vet and they are wondering if the chemo is no longer working and the chemo has now spread. We are going to the vet Friday morning ( we are hoping she lasts that long). Not sure what they are going to do for her there, but at least we can have someone look at her. To us, her lymphnodes are not any larger, but that doesn't mean that the cancer hasn't spread to her organs. This has been such an emotional day. Every time Matt would call to check up on her my tears would start flowing. I just can't imagine our life without her and now I am afraid that we are sooner to that than I was hoping. We knew that we only had 6-9 months with her and we are almost to that 6 month mark. It's just not fair! She is such an awesome dog and such a wonderful part of our family.

We had the talk with Nora tonight about Sadie possibly going to heaven. She was not happy about that at all. She didn't get sad, just mad. She doesn't want Sadie to leave. Sadie is so wonderful with the girls. I can only hope that if we get another dog that it is half the dog Sadie is. She is the best!!

Please keep all the prayers coming, pray for Sadie's comfort. Pray that Matt and I know when to say when, because right now, we don't know what to do!